Alphabetical listing

* A Certain Sadness [b-side Not So Manic Now]
* A Northern Bride [b-side Elevator Song]
* Anyway [b-side Elevator Song]
* Anywhere [Disgraceful]
* Bow Wow Now [b-side Stars v. 2]
* Discgraceful [Disgraceful]
* Don't Blame Me [b-side Anywhere]
* Elevator Song [Disgraceful]
* Excuse Me Father [b-side Stars v. 2]
* If It Isn't You [b-side Not So Manic Now]
* Just A Girl She Said [Disgraceful]
* Not Once, Not Ever [Disgraceful]
* Not So Manic Now [Disgraceful]
* Popdorian [Disgraceful]
* Song no. 9 [b-side Not So Manic Now]
* Starfish [b-side Stars v. 2]
* Stars [Disgraceful]
* St. Swithin's Day [Disgraceful]
* The Day I See You Again [Disgraceful]
* The View From Here [b-side Elevator Song]
* Week In Week Out [Disgraceful]


Stars

is it asking too much to be given time,
to know these songs and to sing them?
is it asking too much of my vacant smile,
and my laugh and lies that bring them?

but as the stars are going out,
and this stage is full of nothing,
and the friends have all but gone
for my life, my god i'm singing

we'll take our hearts outside,
leave our lives behind...
i'll watch the stars go out...

is it asking too much of my favourite friends
to take these songs for real?
is it asking too much for my partners hands
to take these songs for real?

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Anywhere

in time the stakes will change
even persistination couldn't stay
i don't mind,
no, i don't mind...

i'll be around, anywhere
any place you want me...
i'll be around, anywhere
any time i'm free...

in time, this place is mine
you know the inspiration in my smile
i don't mind,
no, i don't mind...

leave it all behind,
i don't mind...

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Just a girl she said

it's alright, i'm just a girl she said,
talk down to me and take me to bed
i don't feel,
i don't think,
and I don't really matter at all

kiss me in darkness, turn out the light
pretend you're with someone else tonight
you don't feel
you don't think
and i don't really understand why...

i'm a person who speaks
i'm a person who thinks
but you hope i'll forget
as you ply me with drinks
and you cannot buy me
and you cannot use me
but i know that you'll want to try...

it's alright, i'm just a girl she said,
you can't buy me
and take me to bed
because i think
because i feel
and you don't matter at all

don't look in my eyes
you may be surprised
to find i have answers to your questions why
'cause i have no feelings
or thoughts of my own
but i know that you'll want to try...

just a girl she said

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Elevator song

if you need somebody around you
well then, I'll be the one who's there
if you need somebody to listen
well then, I'll be the on who's there

but you seem to think
you'll manage alone
i'll be around
and i'll be waiting for your call

if you need somebody to love you
well then, i'll be the one who's there

yes, i'll be the one who's there

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The day i see you again

walking home from work tonight,
your letter warm i'm holding tight
said you want to see me soon
i phoned you late this afternoon...

the bar we first met seems alive
i'll see you there at eight tonight
shouldn't think like this - but is there
something in us meeting now?

all this time, i've waited knowing
though i've changed my heart's still showing

i'll wear a new dress wash my clothes
i'll wear the earrings that you chose
if the man you've grown to be is more
morrison than morrisey

i'll tell you straight as we undress that
things got better when you left and
though i've banned your name since then
i'll call it with my dying breath

no one else would have me so
i've made this day of all days
the day i see you again

will you know me, will i cry?
will the years that passed decide that,
even we who loved and lied,
shouldn't meet again tonight?

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Week in week out

it's not you and it's not me,
it's a feeling now and then
to your face, i find it hard to say
a word about your ways
that's ok...

your smile the bravest face of all
look your eyes they try to pin me down
save me from myself
i won't see you
your smile the bravest face of all
i don't care for it all...

it's not you and it's not me,
it's a feeling now and then

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Not so manic now

the wind's whistling,
my mind's twisting,
i was making myself he usual cup of tea,
when the doorbell strangely rang

because i've been up here for a while,
i'm starting to feel the monotony of the tower-block
i'm not so manic now
i can uphold the weight of those neighbors
and she's lifting and throwing to the wall
the post natal harmonies of youth
when this younger man - twenty five -
advantageously took away her pride

the wind's whistling,
my mind's twisting,
i was making myself the usual cup of tea,
when the doorbell strangely rang

i staggered shaking slowly to the door
through the frosted panel i can see you,
your intentions as a salesman truly cush
you endeavoured as a psycho just to push
and whilst lifting and throwing to the wall,
my puny structure of an ageing o a p
no reason why you chose my flat,
breathing deeply in a trance

the wind's whistling,
my mind's twisting,
i was making myself the usual cup of tea,
when the doorbell strangely rang

i'm not so manic now

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Popdorian

dorian puts on a smile and he's out tonight
dorian always forgetting what's out of sight

every other weekend he's around in there
old enough to know that he could die but too young to care

so dorian puts on a smile and says i'm ok
dorian felt alright but i couldn't say

collectively we give our trust, so foolishly
i never even bothered who was around before me

so dorian puts on a smile for my sister now,
there's no hate in me for that but i don't know how

collectively we give our trust, so foolishly
i never even bothered who was around before me
so dorian puts on a smile on his old face now
dorian realizing he's had it now... for good

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Not once, not ever

hello, my dear friend,
your reputation quite true
these are thoughts i've held on
and saved inside for you

'cause i remember,
couldn't trust you once, not ever

maybe it's been two years,
it could be three
you know it's hard to recall
i was younger,
i thought it was me
maybe you were someone else then, too

'cause i remember
couldn't trust you once, not ever
i remember
couldn't trust you once, not ever

and it's the same old thing
you know i've said this from the start
that living together is something you do
and married is something you are
and even after all this,
i'm writing to you now,
to be reminded of it all
darling, can you hear me?
do you understand?
our best decisions so often were unplanned

i remember
couldn't trust you once, not ever...

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St. Swithin's day

thinking back now
i suppose you were just stating your views
what was it all for?
for the weather of the battle of agincourt?

and the times that we all hoped would last,
like a train they have gone by so fast
and though we stood together on the edge of the platform,
we were not moved by them

with my own hands,
when i make love to your memory,
it's not the same,
i miss the thunder, i miss the rain

and the fact that you don't understand
casts a shadow over this land
but the sun still shines from behind it...

thanks all the same,
but i cannot bring myself to answer your letters
it's not your fault,
but your honesty touches me like a fire

the polaroids that keep us together
will surely fade away
like the love that we spoke of forever on st. swithin's day...

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Disgraceful

i know why you came
this time that we borrowed
imagine us now
talking tomorrow
we're not very big,
but we're certainly clever
to go on together
well... what makes sense now?

disgraceful...
will we ever say no?

it's wine that feel,
that drives us together
this hormonal vision
that won't last forever
we're old enough now,
and we should know better
to go on together
well... what makes sense now?

this match that i'm burning,
two people still looking for something else

disgraceful...
will we ever say no?

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Don't blame me

it's half you
the rest is me, too
the choice was yours
it hurts me, too

so hate me, don't hate me
even though you blame me
the inescapable truth that we'll never prove

so hate me, don't hate me
even though you should...

nothing left to say
pride got in the way

so hate me, don't hate me
don't hate me, don't hate me
even though you blame me
don't hate me, don't hate me
even though you say we need to talk
you know we never could
so hate me, don't hate me
even though you should...

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If it isn't you

if it isn't you

and our room is very small
even now we've moved around and
home by three in time to call
hoping doesn't stop me thinking

if it isn't you

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Song no. 9

i came to this town
a weekend with my boyfriend
his final year away, this time

remember how we sneaked around the last time?
then without a sound, we knew

that New Year's just around the corner ...somehow
i should be somebody's partner, but we know

he's working late - a barman at the union
and left me in the house. you were there

remember your uncle upon his bedside,
and thinking we'd be heard?
no one came...

christmas seems so far behind me
we know new year couldn't be the same

you can't face me - I'm just your flatmate's girlfriend
and monday I'll be gone... 'til then...

i won't touch you, i won't smile - i won't try...
you will laugh and be the same - i won't cry...
new year's going to be the same...

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A certain sadness

look out the window at that rainstorm...
i've let the wind blow up a brainstorm...
and now i'm wondering whether weather like this gets you too...?

it may go on like this for hours,
too late in fall for April showers
so I will call you - got a thought or two i need to share with you,
here goes...

darling, tell me now,
have I done wrong somehow that you won't look at me?
needn't point it out,
can't keep my wits about when you won't when you won't look at me

is there something i ought to know, you're finding hard to say?
well there's just a trace hiding on your face,
and I've learnt it that way...

just another soul that really knows my soul, and you won't look at me?
does that take the prize?
how much i love those eyes and they won't look at me...

now the rain has gone
but something lingers on, a certain sadness here, now that the sky is clear

and it's all so clear...
yes, it's all so clear to me now...
and i can't help but feel a certain sadness here to stay...

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Excuse me father

excuse me father - what i'm trying to say
is that i'm scared 'cause all my friends have been laid
it's in their eyes and in the things they do with their hands -

fastening trousers,
holding their hands tight,
showing their love bites,
where can I hide?

excuse me mother - what i'm trying to say
is that i think that all my friends have been laid
i couldn't hate them, but i don't like the way that it feels -

moving inside me,
women despise me,
children laugh at me,
no...

help me!
don't smush me!
help me!
don't smush me!

excuse me father - what i'm trying to say
is that i'm scared because all my friends have been laid
it's in their clothes and the way that they brush their hair -

talking behind me,
holding my glances,
mincing their movements,
slowing their dances...

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Starfish

[Instrumental]

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Bow wow now

i see your eyes,
you're in the garden today
i wonder - if you could talk,
just what you'd think to say?

you know it's time for us to go,
don't help me...
tomorrow i'm back here on my own,
don't hate me...
no pain,
no strain, I...
i won't forget you

we've been here, together,
since nineteen-eighty-three
i can't bear the thought,
you'd have to die before me...

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Anyway

i'm moving out today,
i've nowhere else to stay,
so how many friends can i count on now...?

and it's easier to stay,
but we know it happened anyway...
so what's the point?

the television's mine,
but you'll be keeping the cutlery,
and your awful bed this time...

and it's easier to stay,
but we know it happened anyway,
so why pretend that this time we'll fly...?
it's really alright

it's easier to stay,
but i know you've done it anyway...

i've found a place to go,
no more words to the show,
so i'll leave you the keys, this time

and it's easier to stay,
yes, it's easier to stay
you've done it anyway
you knew i'd thank you,
but you did it anyway
it's easier to stay,
but you've done it anyway
so what's the point?
there is no point....

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The view from here

take my hand, we're leaving, it's easy
understand i need you to see this
i've found the answer - it's somewhere else 'cause

i can see the view from here,
all we've planned is there for us

i was scorned a long time, frightened
being me gets harder each day, but

i can see the view from here,
all we've planned is there for us

take my hand, we're leaving, now
understand i need you, be there
i've found the answer...

i can see the view from here,
all we've planned is very near
i was scorned a long time, frightened
all we've planned is here, now

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A northern bride

i am the last in a long line of conquests,
completed the contest and made you my one
i flattered your friends and slept with you nightly,
and not even slightly complained about home

'cause time isn't on my side...
there are some things a woman can't hide from

i tidy your home, i speak with you mother,
and even your brother can tell you i tried
to be good for you, with no appreciation,
the depreciation my life has come through

means this is my final try,
to get what i'm sure i deserve, like
love, understanding, joy, and a child,
a partner who thinks that i'm worthless

i've written this note, explaining the reasons
( ) the season you dropped out the week
i've transferred away, i'm heading to nowhere,
tomorrow, my father will come for my things

'cause time isn't on my side...
there are some things a woman can't hide from
like love, understanding, joy, and a child,
a partner who thinks that i'm worthless



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